Ten Laws of Life

I found these written down in a notebook I was found through tonight, and I wanted to remember these things but feel bad that I can't credit the source. I may look it up so that I can post these in my classroom, because I think they're good to keep in mind and to teach to kids.

1. You either get it, or you don't.
2. You create your own experience.
3. People do what works.
4. You cannot change what you do not acknowledge.
5. Life rewards action.
6. There is no reality, only perception.
7. Life is managed; it is not cured.
8. We teach people how to treat us.
9. There is power in forgiveness.
10. You have to name it before you can claim it.

so not what i wanted to hear...

Jesse just called me.

He's been activated again and is being sent to Kuwait, I guess next February. No idea how long he'll be gone exactly. This means that he'll be "involuntarily extended" in his military service since he was supposed to get out August of 2012 and will likely be gone longer than that.

I just want to cry.

i miss him.

I'm totally missing my husband and starting to freak out about the whole thing with him going to Iraq in January. It's so depressing and awful and just makes me feel like I could cry at any second. Not only does it suck not being able to see your best friend for a span of three months, but imagining how fast the time over Christmas will go when he gets to go on leave makes me feel awful too...and then he's headed into danger and nearly nine months of separation. Limited communication. No one to hug me. No one to talk about the stupid little things that I think about and that happen to me at work. No one to make me feel beautiful. No one to watch movies with. No one to read books to Adelle with.

For as bad as this feels, I know that it's going to get worse. Which is part of why it feels so terrible. :(

Nobody ever reads this blog, but for some reason I feel like at least I'm telling someone since very few in my life actually seem to care enough to try to find out how I am.