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Saturday, December 13, 2008

i miss him.

I'm totally missing my husband and starting to freak out about the whole thing with him going to Iraq in January. It's so depressing and awful and just makes me feel like I could cry at any second. Not only does it suck not being able to see your best friend for a span of three months, but imagining how fast the time over Christmas will go when he gets to go on leave makes me feel awful too...and then he's headed into danger and nearly nine months of separation. Limited communication. No one to hug me. No one to talk about the stupid little things that I think about and that happen to me at work. No one to make me feel beautiful. No one to watch movies with. No one to read books to Adelle with.

For as bad as this feels, I know that it's going to get worse. Which is part of why it feels so terrible. :(

Nobody ever reads this blog, but for some reason I feel like at least I'm telling someone since very few in my life actually seem to care enough to try to find out how I am.

2 comments:

Kristin Charles said...

Ashley-

I read your blog, so thanks for telling me your heart. I can't imagine what you are going through. My heart breaks at the thought of it. It must be so hard. I certainly would be a disaster. You have every right to be, without apologies.

I hope and pray that Christmas is as magical and wonderful as anything for you guys. Please soak up every moment of that leave and live it to the full.

As far as January goes, I know that I in no way can ease your loneliness, but I would love to at least be a better friend and listen. So let's get together for real. And not just at birthday parties:)

I love you.

Amy said...

You don't know me and I'm not even sure how I stumbled upon your blog. I just felt compelled to tell you that I am so sorry you will soon be without your husband. I can only imagine the loneliness, frustration, and fear this kind of seperation must be like. I hope your friends surprise you and are there for you in the coming months and that you reach out to them for help and support. And please thank your husband for his service and dedication to our country. There are no words to adequately express our gratitude for him and the sacrifice your family makes in these uncertain times. You and your family will be in our prayers this Christmas season and in the months ahead.